I think all of us have experienced through regular meditation the feeling that we’re becoming a little healthier, a little stronger, a little more normal, a little more confident not in an aggressive, egocentric way but with another kind of self-confidence that comes from self-knowledge. So, as more and more bricks fall out of the wall, we find that the ego is less of a barrier, less of an interference, less of a separation from ourselves to others. On this side of the wall, according to The Cloud of Unknowing, we meet the sorrow of existence, the fact that we can only go so far and then we are blocked – blocked by this ego consciousness, blocked from entering into the union, into the freedom, into the authenticity that we aspire to. But on the other side of the wall, we find the joy of being. So we pass little by little from the sorrow of existence to the joy of being. And then, in God’s own time, the wall opens up; there’s a passage, through the ego. And we find ourselves, as John Main said, encountering the person of Jesus, the inner Christ, able to recognise the presence of the risen Christ, Christ in you.
( The Brick Wall of the Ego 1 by Laurence Freeman OSB )
