True holiness is secret, it’s mysterious, it’s not self-conscious. Anyone who thinks they are holy of course are not holy. John Main even said don’t desire holiness. The more deeply you pray, the less you think about your own holiness or your own achievement. But we let go of the desire for holiness in order to awaken to the fact that we are holy. We have to stop thinking about ourselves as being holy so that we can discover that we are holy, and that is called self-knowledge.
Christian Life in the Light of Christian Meditation 2: Holyness by Laurence Freeman OS
